Teach42

It’s interesting, I just took a look back at some of my old blog posts and I’m a little astonished at how frequently I used to post, and how much I used to write about such inconsequential topics.  Not only that, but there are so many old posts that I thought were nothing that anybody would even care about, but generated quite a bit of conversation.

Lately, even though I spend my entire day on the computer, the blog posts are fewer and more infrequent.  I go to more conferences, I present more, and yet I find myself sharing less.  I’ve been trying to pin down exactly why this is.

For some reason, I’m filtering myself more often than I ever used to.  In the past, I wrote much more freely about any topic that came to mind.  Now for some reason, I try to determine whether it’s Blog Worthy before I post it.  Even stranger, I determine that most things aren’t worthy.  Is it because I want to maintain such high standards for the blog?  Heh, no, that certainly isn’t the case.  I think it might be because back in the day, I never felt like anybody was reading the blog and that I was mostly doing it for myself.  It was my own professional development, my own self-exploration through the written word. 

Now I have a pretty respectable audience.  And for some reason, I feel pressure to pick and choose what I write about, and I’m constently looking for something that’s truly worth sending out to hundreds of people.  Admitedly, that doesn’t mean I don’t publish fluff stuff as well, but there have been tons of things that I thought about blogging, that I chose not to.

The strange thing about this is that anybody who subscribes to me, subscribes because they’ve enjoyed what I’ve written, or they have some connection to me.  Would you really care if I wrote about any darn thing that came to mind?  Of course not!  If you don’t like it, you can always just skip over it.  The beauty of the blog vs. a television or radio broadcast. 

I gotta admit, one other reason that I’ve been doing some filtering is because of the not-so-new job.  I’ve been working at Discovery for almost a year now, and I have to admit that I do still feel some pressure everytime I post something.  No, my personal blog shouldn’t reflect the company, but let’s face it…  it does.  So there have been times where I’ve wanted to speak out about something and have refrained because of the company connection.  That kinda sucks to say the least.  But it’s also reality.  There were plenty of times that I self-censored my thoughts about my old school when I worked there.  Heh, there are still times when I do that!

So what’s the point about all this?  Nothing.  I guess you could say it’s me getting back to my roots, more self exploration, more introspection.

Teach42 was always about looking for questions.  And for some reason lately I’ve felt like I’m supposed to be supplying answers.  So back to the basics methinks.  Nothing personal to everybody reading this blog, but I gotta get away from writing for you and back to writing for me.  If you don’t like it, you know how to unsubscribe :) 

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